Feeling the beauty and vitality of life sometimes has more to do with courage than anything else. Courage to open your arms, place a huge grin your face, and try your freakin’ best to let go of all the reasons why you are not allowed to be elated right now.
Have you ever fully embraced a moment of beauty that came your way?
It’s hard to fully experience any moment.
It takes a lot of courage to slow down enough even to appreciate the good times in life. The sun shining through your window; a soft pleasant breeze; a happy song that comes on the radio.
To appreciate these moments you gotta totally go against the grain. You got to get through all the resistance that’s holding you back from allowing yourself to truly embrace that beauty.
At times I tell myself “you don’t deserve to take in this moment, you are in the middle of a work day, you have to be productive now.”
“You need to get somewhere, you need to get something done, keep moving.”
“What right do you have to fully enjoy this moment after messing up this and that?”
“You can’t allow yourself to truly get high on this moment because your unhappiness is giving you something; something I don’t want to let go of. (It proves I need to move countries because apparently I cannot be happy here).
However, I know (at least most of the time) that this voice is not a truthful one. I know it is just afraid of feeling life as powerfully, and especially, as profoundly as it knows I could.
It’s just afraid of what will open up if the guilt is totally dropped and I am so powerfully open to experiencing and loving life.
To slow down and appreciate the awesomeness of any moment requires a lot of things. Sometimes is requires deep healing so that one can work through the emotional baggage that is holding down their mind, body, and psyche.
However, other times it just requires courage.
Courage to believe that this moment can really be beautiful and that life is really so sweet. Courage to hang out with the moment long enough to tap into it and embrace its beauty.
A few months ago I was driving up to San Francisco from my home in Los Angeles. Midway, I pulled over to the side of the highway to shake out my legs and take a break from the long drive.
It was great to breathe in the air and get the circulation moving again in my body. I was safely on the shoulder of the road but I could still feel the force of the tractor trailers as they speed past me at highway speeds.
The evening was truly delightful. The air was so clean and fresh, the temperature was perfect, and there was a smell that somehow reminded me of great experiences that I had in the past.
However, after just a quick few minutes of shaking out my legs I thought “O.k. now you need to get back into your car and continue driving. You need to get to your host as soon as possible.”
Truthfully, I was not in a rush or late, but it was somehow so deeply conditioned inside of me that I couldn’t just hang out on the side of the highway and enjoy the evening or the moment. It was like I needed to follow normal societal procedures, and as quickly as possible get back into my car and continue driving.
Luckily, this time, I fought that impulse. Luckily, I had the courage to resist the pull of getting back into my car “just because” and got up on the roof my car, laid down, and looked up at the starts.
I managed to take a few breaths and enjoyed the relaxation that came along with them. After that, I happily did some handstands and push-ups and stayed on the side of the road for at least another 20 minutes.
I gulped in the air, I took in the beauty, I smiled at the sky.
Those moments of hanging out on the side of the road just for the sake of it was a moment that for me was truly being alive.
I was not just existing or letting time carry me along,
I was engaging life,
I was choosing,
I was experiencing beauty.
I’m so happy I resisted the urge to get back into my car and that I had the courage to actually fully embrace that moment without thinking that I need to run anywhere. I’m happy because that beauty and aliveness goes deep and helps feed me down the road.
It’s hard to choose positivity over apathy.
It’s hard to grin with happiness and excitement instead of being critical of ourselves.
However, give yourself permission to powerfully embrace and enjoy any special moments that crosses your day; no matter what’s going on in your life or how badly you messed up.
Find the courage to embrace living epically and not just passively. Every day offers us so many of these moments.
So hey, let’s have the courage to find and embrace the next one that comes along.
Here’s to going again the grain.
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